lization 003Journal Entry | 1 day agoOMFG i know know how gf (E) feelsthis being based off my recent poly realization 002. she has been trying to be my friend for years and i keep doing the ok i adore you one minute and the next feeling like she is a two faced bitch, only being nice to me to get into hubby pants. lol.i realized that me being worried about gf (2) n hubbys relationship, is similar to her caring for me n hubby and our relationship.weird eh?!too bad i didnt realize this earlier. as im a bit of a cold roller coaster loving confusing biatch to her XD
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tion 002Journal Entry | 1 Comment | 1 day agoSo earlier this week something interesting happened.[[ oh and btw, I dont want sympathy or your opinions of what to do or could have done better. however similar stories are welcome. so nothing negative! =P ]]so, the four of us went on a walk. and it was only really found our how long of a walk, a third of the way in; 10km! walk. lol, all flat mind you. but still. i had my knee braces on so it wasnt horrible, and the hubby said that it took him and girlfriend (X) 1.5 hrs so no biggie right?nope apparently so much wrong. 3 hours later we ended up with a tired but somehow stupidly energetic wife/me, a tired gf (X), a bubbly but also tired hubby, and a mute im in so much fucking pain i hate you both gf (Z).so the metaphorical shit hit the fan when both tired me n hubby didnt check in on gf (Z) that night or the following morning. funny enough we did ask each other if either of us talked to her. regardless. the following day emotions and amazingly formed words poured out of gf (z) in our poly chat room. we then both expressed what hapened for us individually. and ultimately the three of us all saw what the other one did/say/didnt do/ etc, so a very tense but productive chat. however both of us still feeling guilty and sorry.the part i didnt realize was even thou the main “problem” has nothing to do with you(me), as gf (z) and hubby are still figuring out their d/s relationship, it still affected me in a big way.not only was i worried about their relationship, i was worried about even talking to either of them about the other for fear of saying the wrong thing and triggering/hurting their feelings or something. and besides that, worried how if their relationship fell apart, how would that affect me being with gf (z) after it.finally we all meet up for our usual date night, and i mentioned how even thou i wasnt part of the relationship “problem/tension” i felt, oddly enough, deeply affected by it and hoping for the best in the outcome. surprised but not really they also felt and had the same reaction.maybe that explains us all sucking at sleeping the past week. lolz1 Comment (leave comment)
Arysisa:”nope apparently so much wrong. 3 hours later we ended up with a tired but somehow stupidly energetic wife/me, a tired gf (X), a bubbly but also tired hubby, and a mute im in so much fucking pain i hate you both gf (Z).”correction from gf(z), “Never hated <3″i think my wording was a projection on how i would have felt, ie i hate you for the pain i am in but still love you to pieces. lolz
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ly realization 001Journal Entry | 1 day agothe world ending with gf (9).so gf (9) was recently introduced to us and me, hubby, and gf (7) are normally use to each other, having known each other for years.MORE TBA, back to minecraft
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000Journal Entry | 1 Comment | 1 day agothe intro to the 000 of my poly realizationsevery girl, regardless of their actual relationship status will be referred to as a girlfriend. and every guy, a boyfriend.every separate person will be assigned a letter or number for the post, and it will stay the same throughout that post. However from each separate post the letter/number will change just to super screw with you! and keep anonymity and that.so hi!the hubby and i have been together for 7 years, 8 in feb 2019. married for 4, 5 in march 2019. =D and along with being together we have other partners, bf/gfs, secondaries, lovers, fwb, play partners, fuck buddies, etc.in the middle of the seven years i also had a serious mental health melt down, friends ran away, hospitals were visited often, but through out it all he stayed with me.i now have a full time government job with benefits, my first ever actually that gives me a proper 40 hr week, and dose not have an end of contract date.we are trying to have kids and i am going back to school.i also realized shit. so that what these are all about.PS – if you are one of our partners are are confused by something feel free to ask us.PSS – if you are a stranger, sorry but not sorry, fuck off and mind your own business. lol, even thou yes, i am posting on the internet for all to see. (more so i dont want your negative shit all over my pages)1 Comment (leave comment)
Arysisa:update: i also realized after several of the partners read my posts, that all my writing is all from my point of view. i am not you and therefore i can only project what i imagine you would be feeling in that situation, or more accurately, how i would feel in your shoes.i think i may need a disclaimer on the posts lol
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